Monday, May 9, 2011

Falling apart

every day that goes by I feel shreds of my soul shrivel up fall off and blow away.....
The day my son was born I thought there was nothing so beautuifl and true in this world... I wanted .. no I needed everything to be good for him...
I wanted him ho have a fantastic childhood with millions of memories of how wonderful it was.
And I have some how damaged him beyond all repair...
ADHD... and everything he needs. this place and everything it is....
WHERE AM I?????? ohhh yeah.. i disappeared into the Ocean of shame I feel because he is damaged, the house is damaged hell even the dog is damaged....
I wish I could fix him... but I can't fix what I don't know......
I'm so sorry I failed as your mother my sweet son

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